ripening sunbeams
and earth schemes bursting colors
fattening night’s death

ripening sunbeams
and earth schemes bursting colors
fattening night’s death

So much treasure suspended in motion, space, feeling, a tumble of locomotion commotions and contradictions collide in one life, all life, and we rarely know just how amazing it all is. My week pounds out a rhythm barely doable here and in the middle of it all someone precious fades into the next expression of love’s history, retreating from any mode of tangible accessibility. The shock spreads my time across a canvas of love-tension, stretching out details, slowing the blur just enough to observe. Death, loss, knowing and being known, lingering impressions and poignant etches trail across the memorial halls of soul, haunt the ticking clock I can’t hear but feel. All the details strike me as surreal, suspended, a slow-motion collage of awareness and a sense of life “moving forward” but freeze-framed and thriving beyond the losses.
Where are we really? All of us…do we know? What great undone “thing” suspends us as we advance, clings to us as we strip away whatever we can? I don’t want to miss anything… and yet… the most we can do, most of the time, is feast as we go, trust as we flow and stay aware of how much power we do have, love-power. Everything else is just clutter.

Your reach runs
deep here,
stretches across
worlds,
And the winds whip through my clothes,
grabbing at all the cloaks,
finding warm,
those parts of me unborn
but knowing…
You know you could slam me
against this wall
and I’d only be grateful for the solid flesh crush,
something other than
ethereal surreal
whisperings,
something more than
mere haunts
of visceral beckoning taunting the real raw
of all these edges
rounded and receiving
all these words in wind whispering,
all these words telling our humanity,
refusing more civilized structures,
turning unexpected corners,
relentlessly chasing great big freight trains,
spinning along their
locomotion,
all the way to this here, this now,
all these words on the wind
grabbing at me,
crashing my refusal,
turning my head towards the sun…
towards the knowing within…

We are this tapestry, a richly weaving and woven wandering…
threads flowing from and to, drawing lives together in unity…
‘though we pretend our isolation, a desolate disparity of beliefs,
distortions of hope and confusion of purpose…
in spite of all our chaos-making madness,
these loving lines defy us, insisting our lives aflame with beauty,
begging our delusions melt away, clamoring our best for new days.

leaning our yearning bellies,
stretching our bone-tired limbs to a sky
whose blue depths suggest our lives a thread among many,
so many weaving and woven, speaking and spoken trails of being
along a path more varied than we allow ourselves to know
as we sprawl out under sun, sighing,
knowing so much of the smallest “truths” posing rightness
and in our knowing an assurance overdone,
not quite real until we allow ourselves to feel it all,
to welcome the sink seep into bones
this deep awareness of the hues we all provide
this grand canvas that is life,
eternal.
in spite of all evidence to the contrary,
we hum a melody long after we’re gone…

inevitable opening, releasing our tight enclosure,
hush of hallowed relentless holdings, breaking what was, is…
standing out from quietest covering, emerging this song something,
melody musing our unity regardless, regardless of
the dance without feet, the call without word…
all answers ‘though no one asked,
the hearing without sound,
the love-fusion without touch endlessly touching depths, worlds within,
embrace of fire and water, reaching the out-of-reach,
intimacy hiding in the open…
resounding feltness ripping away cloaks no longer useful,
relevance embracing deeper resonance, a creating mystery,
enlightening journey of we as one as all…

For sun’s song through trees’ outstretched arms
and
the most supreme grace of hugs
from three birthed
but birthing me,
I turn towards each day
regardless of,
because of all the challenges
surreal and intriguing.
Life is precious fleeting
but pulsing eternal patterns,
a tapestry of wholeness felt
as love unfolds us all –
when we reach with hearts of faith,
refusing fear.

I Was My Own Route (Yo misma fui mi ruta)
Julia de Burgos
I wanted to be like men wanted me to be:
an attempt at life;
a game of hide and seek with my being.
But I was made of nows,
and my feet level on the promissory earth
would not accept walking backwards
and went forward, forward,
mocking the ashes to reach the kiss
of new paths.
At each advancing step on my route forward
my back was ripped by the desperate flapping wings
of the old guard.
But the branch was unpinned forever,
and at each new whiplash my look
separated more and more and more from the distant
familiar horizons;
and my face took the expansion that came from within,
the defined expression that hinted at a feeling
of intimate liberation;
a feeling that surged
from the balance between my life
and the truth of the kiss of the new paths.
Already my course now set in the present,
I felt myself a blossom of all the soils of the earth,
of the soils without history,
of the soils without a future,
of the soil always soil without edges
of all the men and all the epochs.
And I was all in me as was life in me .. . .
I wanted to be like men wanted me to be:
an attempt at life;
a game of hide and seek with my being.
But I was made of nows;
when the heralds announced me
at the regal parade of the old guard,
the desire to follow men warped in me,
and the homage was left waiting for me.
we fall all over ourselves…
bending, stretching, reaching for jewels
as if they aren’t
at our feet and just to the left of right,
beyond the ideas of what should be
or thoughts of who has more integrity.
flowers bloom late,
singing in the pelting melt of sky
melodies defying loss,
haunting what remains –
elixir fragrant, magick making
love, love, love…
potions conjuring newness
calling one more dance
on the edge of autumn’s field.

Step with bare feet, open heart and seeing eyes…

look up at the trees,
take deep breaths
and sigh…
soak it in and up
and all the way
to the marrow,
drink mother earth’s
feast of peace
in song of sparrows,
call of all
that soothes the soul…
let go
but don’t surrender, release
but remain committed…
partake but don’t devour,
embody eternal wholeness
not by setting yourself apart
but diving in
empowered by love
love,
love,
love,
not sentimental, not asleep, not begging, never weak,
not pretending, not avoiding, not denying obvious truths,
avoiding only the shirking of our power to impart…
love,
love,
love,
seeking clarity, braving revelations, recognizing disparity,
accepting change as the sometimes inevitable rite of growth,
never lording over, relentlessly embracing the flaws and beauty…
within, without,
and all we have yet to know
in this wholeness dance of soul…